Of my very first love
Uploaded by Applee on May 28, 2012
I am dying inside…
Silence falls.
No word spelled.
What a huge wound,
It is invisibly bleeding non-stop.
Cannot hide my depressed face,
I feel remorse at the same time…
All I hear is ticking of lacerates.
Malediction the hell world for being unfair
Does not it is fair enough?
For letting you face the world- the real one.
Shut up, darling.
Stop staring at me with your poker face
Do not you see I am going insane?
Look.
Eye not in my eyes, not even my body- Never
Heart... here.
Please?
I hear you laugh- loud.
I see you smile- big.
It was not supposed to be comical- I guess so.
Why you made me considered myself as an idiot on my own stage?
You just cannot see mine, really.
Mine, which you played with.
Wait.
Am I asking for sympathy?
Am I wishing my baby to be sympathetic?
I am touching my encephalon to make sure I did not lose my mind.
At least they did not punish me by calling me a prick,
I heard they called me sick- even worse?
Kind of ill, something critical.
The pain suffocated me but in out of blue my chest feels empty.
Did my hearthave popped out?
Oh no, it tried torun away?
Or…I lost it after someone chopped it down to thousands tiny pieces?
Should I seek for a new one at the nearest heart’s shop?
There is no hunch for the next move.
You had promised that you would always be there,
The hardest part was you never really care.
I am fallen through your lies,
All your alibis.
I know what you hiding- finally.
I can see what you do not want me to see- gratefully.
Stop and stare there.
Watch me burn.
Someday, it will be your turn.