Are You Real
Uploaded by Mikee on Mar 02, 2007
You could never imagine the pain i feel, when i start to question what is real......
I have this fear of never being satisfied, i can't find stable happiness believe me, i've tried. Please know it's not easy, thinking I might live life until i die, wondering if i'll ever be satisfied. Who else could I blame myself for my insecurity?
Sometimes i hate my cynicism, which only results in vacillation, i get caught in the whirlwind that circulates through my mind.
i take a breath and try to concentrate, to make sure my emotions don't instigate.... the result being a decision i might regret, or suffer for down the line,
look at the monster I've created in my mind.
When my heart skips a beat and words pause with hesitation, it's just my overactive imagination;
that constant fear of the future and what will happen to me.
i'm uncomfortable having so much emotion
why can't it be more simple, it's my only insecurity,
You.....not being true to me.
this whole reality