Memories and Influences
Memories and Influences
During your lifetime there are many events that are memorable and influential. There are also those times in your life when you behave in a not so admirable way and even wish you could go back and change some of your actions. These not so admirable times are the ones that should teach you the most about yourself and your reactions to others. As you look back at your life and see these times, they shouldn’t cause regrets but have taught you lessons. One of my not so admirable times that I learned from was when I was hurting two people that I cared about dearly because I was scared to feel what I felt.
The event that sticks out in my mind as one of my life teaching lessons was when I caused pain to two men that I loved more than myself. At the time, I was dating a man, named Michael, who was a year younger than I was. Also, at the same time, I was best friends with a man named Jim who was older than I was.
Jim and I had been best friends for about a year and during this time my feelings for him grew into more than just friends. As my feelings continued we discussed the possibility of a relationship but decided that it was better for both of us to remain friends. This was agreed upon because neither of us were willing to risk losing our friendship or our current situation. This left me feeling hurt and confused but, also relieved to know that no matter what happened from then on we would make it. We had both agreed that we would put everything we had into this friendship including our whole heart. As time went on, I worried about losing him to someone else that he loved more than a friend, more than me. Yet surprisingly enough, it was not him who found someone else it was I.
One of the first things that I was about to realize was when you least expect something to happen that is when it usually does. It was December and it was Christmas time and I thought I couldn’t be happier. I had everything I thought I wanted. My best friend and...