THE EDGE by Adeel Salman
Uploaded by eddyslash on Mar 20, 2009
THE EDGE
by Adeel Salman
This was definitely not the way he had planned... he stood there at the edge of the roof. He looked down. People walking in the street looked like ants. There was none he could recognize. But at this point even if he could; it would not have made any difference. His mind kept switching between the past and present... as if trying to find some point of reference that he could quote to himself and convince himself to change his decision… occasionally his neurons brought up her face… it helped for just a micro second but then it got worse than before… he could recall the journey back… he had felt so hopeful that she would help him take control of himself… in just one month he had experienced fate lashing back in his face with full fury. She had changed to a point where his existence only mattered to her; merely based on his utility… at this point his mind bombarded him with a trillion questions… where did he lack?... was it just the fact that he wasn’t good looking enough?... was it his age?.... was it ever love they had?... and this continued to a point where he became numb!
He could hear her voice every time someone questioned her about him… their relationship was sending shock waves to the world around them… to him it didn’t matter- she was his world… but to her, it did… he was just a part of her world…
He looked down. The height didn’t scare him… a gust of wind crossed his frame… he felt tired… he could hear his heart beat… he could feel it beating against his chest… shaking his whole existence… he wanted that to stop… he wanted to put an end to that… he had no more left inside him… he knew he couldn’t run anymore… he knew now that this was the end he always had… and he had only delayed this end by running away…
He could recall all the time she had loved him… held him close… held him together… her sweet voice echoed deep in his soul… I love you… don’t ever leave me… you complete me… what would I do without you… miss you… Jahan Ara… Deelo…! He could feel her fingers run through her hair… he could feel her soft warm breath touch him… he could see her bright deep...