Yoga/meditation
Yoga/meditation
Originally, my plan was to spend three days in Oklahoma practicing yoga two to three times a day and spend at least a couple of hours a day in meditation. The first day went alright for a little while. I arose at ten o’clock or so and began with an hour and forty-five minute session with kriyas and meditation. That yeilded a wonderful, relaxed feeling. Afterwards, I was inspired to take a rare cold shower. Throughout the rest of the day I attempted short meditations. My problems with this were that my diet did not support me nutriciously and I did not leave my mother’s apartment. I was left with a feeling of being trapped in an unhealthy and stiffling environment. Later in the evening, because I felt closed in and bored, I went out with a friend and smoked marijuana. I believe it could have been useful if I had done this in a more controlled setting and with the intent of spiritual exploration, which I failed to do in that regard.
I struggled further during the subsequent two days.I wake up a little early to practice yoga, but I did not do it again later in either days as I had planned. I found it increasingly difficult to meditate. I attibute that to the reasons mentioned above, as well as trying too hard when I mustered enough energy to attempt it. Finally, on the third day I simply gave up and decided to try another intensive routine when I got back to school.
When I did return to school, it took me two weeks before I wrote down a proposed schedule. My lack of initiative was probably caused, unconciously, by my poor experience back at home, plus my general laziness towards a project that decreases my previously unscheduled time.
I eventually did design a three day plan, involving waking up an hour and a half earlier than normal and doing yoga before TMS meets each morning. During community silence I would meditate ten to fifteen minutes. During the two hour break in the middle of the day I proposed doing a combination of yoga and meditation. At some point in the evening I envisioned doing both as well. As was the case in Oklahoma, the first day went well and I more or less adhered to what I had scheduled for myself. My housemate Mikey led my morning session, which...